Being a Mother

When the little hands curl around ur neck and hug the worries away
When those endearing words ” i love you” touch ur ears and melt the stress of the day

When u love someone so much that ur heart aches

When u share a bond so wonderful and strong that’s hard to break

When you mean the world to someone

And that someone means the world to you

In your eyes its the most beautiful thing you knew

When a smile takes your breathe away

And its voice the most soothing sound you can play

When the eyes reflect divinity

And this little human becomes the definition of beauty

When sound of their heart beat calms your soul

And their sheer exsistence fulfills you as a whole

Remember you are a creator and its the most enchanting thing

Part of you that redefines your being

The phenomena that’s here to stay

You are a mother; and no one can ever take that away!
Priya

Sweep me off my Feet

Someone asked me a question recently. It was simple question but it really got me wondering. One would imagine every girl should know the answer to that. I am not being a sexist here by calling out only the girls; but it was a question intended for a girl. Ok may be I am wrong, in all honesty it can be extended to a boy as well but since it was asked to me and I am girl; I am including all girls! Anyhow you must be wondering what question got me thinking that day and more so writing about it today. I was   asked “what would sweep me off my feet?” The question came from a guy so it would be safe to assume that it was asked to know what a guy can do to spin my world around. Simple question to those who have given this a thought before or have experienced it but to me it was perplexing. I quickly started responding hoping the answer would come to me as I type but as I started; I was at a complete loss of words. I was blank; nothing came to my mind as a suitable response. I thought to myself; this is easy, I should know this. He is simply asking what would excite me beyond imagination. There are a lot of plausible answers and basically no right or wrong answer. To different girls, it  might mean different things or gestures;  it might mean being held in the arms of the man they love, or lavish gifts like the most beautiful smelling perfume, a gorgeous outfit, an expensive piece of jewelry or going for an exotic vacation or may be just a mix of a little bit of everything. 

Inclined Inwards

The basis on which we now live our lives is the criterion initiated for the necessities of life. But basis have changed; dramatically. Over the years we have thrived to live for values, culture and substance. It is almost scary how rapidly the definitions for these are changing. 

We now live in this self-absorbent world where being selfish is absolutely fine. “Charity begins at home” as we say. Put yourself first, see if it suits you, is it convenient, and skip the non-essential.  But who determines what’s important or not. Us, we do and it is ok to do so. It’s ok to look out for your own self and to be a tad bit selfish. 

But the next question that arises is being how selfish is ok? If everybody is staring inwards, who is looking out? The window to the world has been shut down or is becoming increasingly opaque. As we become more “advanced”; we have started living in the world of virtual reality. It’s almost like there is another hemisphere outside our own world. We are concerned by what takes place at our end but what happens in the ‘hemisphere’ has little or no impact on our lives. 

Ignorance is bliss. Not knowing something is better than knowing facts that might negatively impact you. “To each its own”; is the new mantra. Why should other people’s actions or thoughts impact me?  I should look out for myself without letting the external factor impacting me. 

As sad as it sounds, it is the harsh reality of today’s world.  And it’s acceptable to a certain extend. One can think, people are focused for their own success without having to pay any heed to other’s opinions. On the flip side, people have become so self-centered that the universe now needs to revolve around them or so they believe.

Ironic as it is, we are all looking inwards but still walking in the same direction like everyone else; to attain the ultimate goal. The definition goal might diverge, path might be altered but that is the ultimate destination. 

Realization

​A realization; a moment when a light bulb goes on in your head; a moment that brings clarity from the foggy vision and everything becomes visible…. Like its always been there, staring at you; waiting for you to recognize it; sticking its tongue  out every time you failed or making a ”buzz sound” for the incorrect answer every time you came up with a vague theory. That’s life for you! But it’s been good and I have a new found respect for the wonderful realizations I have had lately.  I felt like kicking myself for not realizing it sooner but that’s the beauty of it I guess.  It’s been there, it’s the obvious and it’s the one you can’t see.  And once you see it, it’s like the most obvious thing just as the earth is round. 

Coming back to my realizations: I have had one too many lately, but better late than sorry-right! So here I am beaming in the glory of my new found insights.  It definitely puts a different spin to things, almost giving them a new definition.  It’s like I was fighting a battle for years and I came victorious. Combat & survive. All these years I have been battling within my tiny mind. A struggle that continued on forever and now I feel free; liberated. As if the shackles that had bound for years have vanished. 

Like I said before I have had a few realizations recently, all of them are probably not worth a mention. They might mean a lot to me personally but to someone else it might have no significance whatsoever. But one of the insight I had might make a difference; especially to all the strong women out there. Power to us all! We are so used to fighting our battles and being with shining armor of our will and spirit that sometimes we forget we are humans. Once we realize it; we crash, break down into million pieces, or sometimes there are times where you are tired of being strong. You want someone else to be strong for you. For once the emotionally dependence doesn’t seem like a bad thing but it hurts to know that there is no one who can understand. So here’s what I realized; once you are strong; you can’t be weak again. Let me elaborate. Once you have fought your battles and shown to the world that you can handle it; people (I use the term loosely; it could be family, friends, neighbors, anyone) cannot seem to comprehend if you act weak.  It’s not to say we can’t have weak moments but we can’t let those overshadow us. We can’t dwell on them and act needy. Even if it means being in need to have emotional support or that extra push that makes you keep going. It’s almost like another battle of might; to convince yourself, you are your lone supporter and the push has to come from within. No matter what! 

Once you eliminate that need for dependence; there is a new found rage, a new found power, a new found strength to keep going like you are unstoppable. Don’t get me wrong; it’s wonderful if we can find the support; in fact very welcomed but to almost make you so self-sufficient to know that you will not only survive but shine even if that backing is missing.

We talk about women empowerment; but forget somewhere the sacrifices she had to make to attain that power. The hurdles she had to cross, the struggles; the battles; the hardships.  It’s like letting go a part of you to achieve the other.  A learned behavior; a practiced skill, or emotional intelligence. Given some women are born with it but most have to overcome; what I consider the biggest obstacle; is to take charge of their emotions and letting the mind do the thinking, keeping the heart aside.  It is hard, to become ruthlessly practical, speak your mind, stand firm and grounded.  One also faces the fear to be judged; to be called a “BITCH”. People seem to adapt that term when they can’t handle a strong, opinionated and vocal women. She becomes a bitch, coz she knows how to voice her opinion and to be direct.

So overall being a woman can have it challenges but being a strong woman- whoa; a whole new ball game. You got to be able to think like a man, emote like a woman, act like a proper lady, look like a girl and work like a horse. Puff I am tired writing it. But add being strong to the mix and the mix would look like, fight like a warrior, stay firm like a bull, heart of a lion, patience of a hawk and grounded like a tree.  And once you have established yourself as a strong woman; there is no looking back. You can no longer be a lady with emotions. Your sensitive side should be hidden in covers, primarily because no one would understand but also there is a risk of being manipulated. 

But all said and done; it is ok. I am proud to be tagged a strong woman. I had to work hard to achieve that title and I will hold on to it regardless of what it takes.  So I end this note with a last shout out to all my fellow ladies” Believe in yourself, follow your passion, combat your fears, survive & repeat”. That’s the mantra. It has given me the push when I need it; hope it gives you the strength as well to stay STRONG!

​Be Yourself

I think of strength and I think of me
What is it that I want to be? 

I sphere of emotions or a buoyant whirlwind

Hard to be both and win

Power is within you to find

Emotions are never well defined

For one it means love to other shackle

For one progress to other debacle

It is vague and yet so clear

One is poise and other fear

Emotions are tender and make you weak

You got to be strong to have a shining streak

Hold up the head high, take a bow

Feelings tucked in, ready to wow

Be the turtle with the hard cover

Robust outside & warm inner

Keep them away from the inner turmoil

Take on the world with a big smile

Let them fear the façade and exhale

You be yourself; never unveil

The sensitive you, for they don’t care

You be you, while you are here!

Solace

I wish far away from the world I could go

Where there’s only silence to talk to and peace to explore

Away from the anticipation and desire

Where there’s only pureness to admire

Away from the exploring eyes and probing minds

A solitude…so much desired but hard to find

Let me go and discover me

For I have only known what others perceive of me

Let me find my true self and more

There is more to me but i am yet to explore

Let me connect to that inner divine

Tap the core to claim the ray that shines

Let me free myself and elope to new empire

Where peace is mine and there’s the seclusion i desire….

In Search of ME

​There’s a beat in my heart i don’t recognize

A rhythm in the way it falls & rise

A blur in the eye making dreams a far cry

A sound in the ear that is unclear

My mind at ease but a conflict remains

I ponder what i lost or what i gained

A thought so coiled

Exuberance drained

A whisper so hushed

a feel untouched

I lay awake quibbling with me

Adrift in my muse…in search of ME…

I Did It

As i try and embrace the new me
There is a loneliness i feel
A pang of emotions
A thurst of ache
Life is really never a piece of cake
To the eyes of beholder it might look pretty
But as you peak inside its a funky city
Where the person who resides is the only one
Keeping the city alive…fighting a battle not yet won
But i won’t give up until the end of time I will combat and survive
To come out of it more robust
Coz this is life & it means so much
A step at a time is all it takes
Yet put a focus on the mistakes
To assimilate from it to make a better you
And ensure no matter what life throws you would follow through
No one said it will be easy but it would be worth it
So i will take it on and stamp my name on it
To show the world i was here & i did it!!!

Realign

​When reality & dreams become a blur

Its time to give your soul a stir

Mind your mind & tame your thoughts

Hold the line that’s drifting apart

Focus and realign the realm

Stride towards your worth again